Scuba Steven, M.D.

Steve plays dumb most of the time, but this dog is incredibly smart.  He knows what I mean when I talk to him.  I've noticed him staring at me and when I turn to look at him, he raises his head and lifts his ears, observing my every move.  Trevor does this too, but Steve does it most often.  He is a pretty good judge of character in people.   He has definitely protected me in many situations.  Steve protected me from my creepy ass neighbor.  The man walked up to us and Steve dropped to the ground and started growling.  When we walk to the park and strangers approach us, Steve walks closer to me.  It's as if he's saying 'stay behind me, Mom.  I'll check them out and make sure they're safe for ya.'  I love this dog and I'm going to do everything in my power to ensure his happiness.  He has protected me for almost 2 years and I'm going to protect him for the rest of his life. :)


~Nancy Drew

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~Nancy Drew

Movies, anyone?

Since most everything in my life is uncertain right now, I've decided to blog about something I know.  I know movies.  I love movies and I love going out to see movies.  Anyone know how long it's been since I've been to a movie?  Close to a year.  It sucks.  I used to go with my friends all the time.  But now, I'm stuck with renting movies when they are cheap on Sundays or just watching tv online.  


My movie obsession is horror or suspense films.  My goal for the past couple of years is to find a 'scary' movie that actually scares me.  I used to be so jumpy and I hated watching them but now, I laugh at them.  I like the stories but the fear factor is kinda lame to me now.  I'm looking down at my desk and I see a couple scary movies that I rented this past weekend.  They don't scare me but I love the story.  


So, I need someone to tell me what movie will scare me if I watch it.  Leave me a comment and give it your best shot.  


~Nancy Drew

Just keeps getting better...

I begged for someone to wow me and they certainly did.  I've had a really bad feeling in my gut for weeks and for good reason.  Where do I go from here?  I wish I could disappear.  I've said that before without real meaning.  I've never meant it more than right now.  Never before have I ever felt more unloved, unappreciated, unwanted, and alone.  


We all know that life is unfair....but how long do people feel this way?  When do I get my moment that I've been waiting for?


I think I'm a good person.  I really do.  I will give up what I have to help someone who needs it.  I always try to think ahead to make things easier on the people who are around me.  And yet, I am a bitch.  If I am a bitch for being upset over the things that upset me, then so be it.  Hi, I'm Nancy Drew and I'm a bitch.  Did that wow you?


~Nancy Drew

Incredible Moments

Whatever happened to those incredible moments that just take your breath away?  Those times when everything is going your way and you feel happy and complete?  I've felt that before.  What happened to them?  I used to have joy.  Now, I simply feel content.  And sometimes, not even that.  Lately it has been that the best thing to happen during my day is when I get a hug from one of the ladies at work.  Just a simple hug.  That brightens my day a bit, but even then I am not wowed.  I want that WOW again.  I want excitement instead of anxiety.  I am tired.  I am tired of not sleeping and tired of worrying about whether or not my dogs will have food next week or whether or not my utilities will be shut off again.  I want something big to happen.  Something good.  Somebody, PLEASE.... wow me.


~Nancy Drew