I started a new job today. It was a lot of fun and I'm sure I will enjoy it for a while. I also got a haircut. I kinda wish I hadn't got it cut but what can I do now? It won't take long for it to grow out again.
I'm on the verge of losing everything I have. I'm behind on every bill. I'll be out of power in a few days and I'm probably going to lose my house. I'm busting my ass to save what I have but I feel like I'm digging the hole a little bit deeper every day.
I've fought depression for months. I'm losing the battle. I've tried to stay positive and not let anyone know how sad and afraid I have been. I guess I should try harder. I can't keep lying to everyone about how I'm doing.
When does this all get better? Someone please tell me.
Saturday, October 29, 2011
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
Sunday, October 2, 2011
Every decision I make, I feel like it's the wrong one. I never know when to follow my heart or what. I used to make good decisions but now, I don't. I used to be able to decide things and not worry that I've made the wrong choice. What ever happened to no regrets? I know that what is done is done but I can't help but wonder if I should have taken a different path. Maybe I should have listened to my brain instead of my heart. Maybe I shouldn't want things so bad. Maybe I should stop being so selfish and spoiled. I've worked for what I have and I have no intention of losing it but I think I just made a huge mistake.