New Job

I started a new job today.  It was a lot of fun and I'm sure I will enjoy it for a while.  I also got a haircut.  I kinda wish I hadn't got it cut but what can I do now?  It won't take long for it to grow out again.  


I'm on the verge of losing everything I have.  I'm behind on every bill.  I'll be out of power in a few days and I'm probably going to lose my house.  I'm busting my ass to save what I have but I feel like I'm digging the hole a little bit deeper every day.


I've fought depression for months.  I'm losing the battle.  I've tried to stay positive and not let anyone know how sad and afraid I have been.  I guess I should try harder.  I can't keep lying to everyone about how I'm doing.  


When does this all get better?  Someone please tell me.


~Nancy Drew

Lonely

I miss this beautiful woman.

~Nancy Drew

Decisions

Every decision I make, I feel like it's the wrong one.  I never know when to follow my heart or what.  I used to make good decisions but now, I don't.  I used to be able to decide things and not worry that I've made the wrong choice.  What ever happened to no regrets?  I know that what is done is done but I can't help but wonder if I should have taken a different path.  Maybe I should have listened to my brain instead of my heart.  Maybe I shouldn't want things so bad.  Maybe I should stop being so selfish and spoiled.  I've worked for what I have and I have no intention of losing it but I think I just made a huge mistake.


~Nancy Drew