He left us.

Last night before I went to work,  "little brother" wrote a note that he was leaving and slipped out of the house. It was weird that he left while B and I were upstairs, but to each his own. 

B saw him at Walmart this morning. He said he couldn't find a ride. B told him where to stand to find someone to take him home. Poor guy. It was hot today and he said he had been standing there all night.

I hope he makes it home safely!

~Nancy Drew

Gambling with the "gays"

I went to the casino a few times this weekend. I made a bunch of money but ended up spending it all. It was a great weekend anyhow.

Cynthia went with us and she introduced me to one of her friends who just happened to be there. She told him my name and he said, "I'm Dick." So I responded, "Are you trying to run me off?" I love lesbian humor.  The man didn't understand why I said it so Cynthia had to explain, which made me laugh even.harder.

On our way back from the casino, we (meaning Cynthia) picked up a hitchhiker in Joplin.  Luckily, he didn't kill us and he ended up being pretty cool. So we decided to keep our little hitchhiker.  He was on his way to Chicago and we told him that we adopted him and he needs to stay in Springfield. He is going to stay a few weeks and see if he likes it. He is a nice kid and I hope he either likes it here or makes it safely back to Chicago.  I've been calling him my little brother.

~Nancy Drew

Whoop... Not 1, but 2!

Well, new plans.  Not just one new roommate... Make that TWO new roommates!  YAY!!  One will be here this weekend and one will be here on April 20th.  YAYAYAYAYA!  I'm so happy because I'm going to be closer to my friends.    


All of my boys are doing great.  They are happy and active and they are really behaving themselves.  


I have a lot of work to do this week and especially this weekend.

~Nancy Drew

Old friends and a new roommate

It sure is great seeing old friends.  Not that all of my friends are old... Of course, I'm meaning it's great to see those who have been my friends for many years. :)  We had a great time chatting tonight.  I wish I had made it to my high school reunion today.  Maybe I'll make it to the next one.  I hope I don't end up being that person who drops off the face of the planet and never talks to anyone from my hometown.   But ahhhh to be a hermit!  HAHA I'm not even close to being a hermit.  I'm always out and about nowadays.  I love it and I hope it continues...


In other news, it's only a little over a week away before my new roommate moves in.


~Nancy Drew

Scuba Steven, M.D.

Steve plays dumb most of the time, but this dog is incredibly smart.  He knows what I mean when I talk to him.  I've noticed him staring at me and when I turn to look at him, he raises his head and lifts his ears, observing my every move.  Trevor does this too, but Steve does it most often.  He is a pretty good judge of character in people.   He has definitely protected me in many situations.  Steve protected me from my creepy ass neighbor.  The man walked up to us and Steve dropped to the ground and started growling.  When we walk to the park and strangers approach us, Steve walks closer to me.  It's as if he's saying 'stay behind me, Mom.  I'll check them out and make sure they're safe for ya.'  I love this dog and I'm going to do everything in my power to ensure his happiness.  He has protected me for almost 2 years and I'm going to protect him for the rest of his life. :)


~Nancy Drew

Movies, anyone?

Since most everything in my life is uncertain right now, I've decided to blog about something I know.  I know movies.  I love movies and I love going out to see movies.  Anyone know how long it's been since I've been to a movie?  Close to a year.  It sucks.  I used to go with my friends all the time.  But now, I'm stuck with renting movies when they are cheap on Sundays or just watching tv online.  


My movie obsession is horror or suspense films.  My goal for the past couple of years is to find a 'scary' movie that actually scares me.  I used to be so jumpy and I hated watching them but now, I laugh at them.  I like the stories but the fear factor is kinda lame to me now.  I'm looking down at my desk and I see a couple scary movies that I rented this past weekend.  They don't scare me but I love the story.  


So, I need someone to tell me what movie will scare me if I watch it.  Leave me a comment and give it your best shot.  


~Nancy Drew

Just keeps getting better...

I begged for someone to wow me and they certainly did.  I've had a really bad feeling in my gut for weeks and for good reason.  Where do I go from here?  I wish I could disappear.  I've said that before without real meaning.  I've never meant it more than right now.  Never before have I ever felt more unloved, unappreciated, unwanted, and alone.  


We all know that life is unfair....but how long do people feel this way?  When do I get my moment that I've been waiting for?


I think I'm a good person.  I really do.  I will give up what I have to help someone who needs it.  I always try to think ahead to make things easier on the people who are around me.  And yet, I am a bitch.  If I am a bitch for being upset over the things that upset me, then so be it.  Hi, I'm Nancy Drew and I'm a bitch.  Did that wow you?


~Nancy Drew

Incredible Moments

Whatever happened to those incredible moments that just take your breath away?  Those times when everything is going your way and you feel happy and complete?  I've felt that before.  What happened to them?  I used to have joy.  Now, I simply feel content.  And sometimes, not even that.  Lately it has been that the best thing to happen during my day is when I get a hug from one of the ladies at work.  Just a simple hug.  That brightens my day a bit, but even then I am not wowed.  I want that WOW again.  I want excitement instead of anxiety.  I am tired.  I am tired of not sleeping and tired of worrying about whether or not my dogs will have food next week or whether or not my utilities will be shut off again.  I want something big to happen.  Something good.  Somebody, PLEASE.... wow me.


~Nancy Drew

New Job

I started a new job today.  It was a lot of fun and I'm sure I will enjoy it for a while.  I also got a haircut.  I kinda wish I hadn't got it cut but what can I do now?  It won't take long for it to grow out again.  


I'm on the verge of losing everything I have.  I'm behind on every bill.  I'll be out of power in a few days and I'm probably going to lose my house.  I'm busting my ass to save what I have but I feel like I'm digging the hole a little bit deeper every day.


I've fought depression for months.  I'm losing the battle.  I've tried to stay positive and not let anyone know how sad and afraid I have been.  I guess I should try harder.  I can't keep lying to everyone about how I'm doing.  


When does this all get better?  Someone please tell me.


~Nancy Drew

Lonely

I miss this beautiful woman.

~Nancy Drew

Decisions

Every decision I make, I feel like it's the wrong one.  I never know when to follow my heart or what.  I used to make good decisions but now, I don't.  I used to be able to decide things and not worry that I've made the wrong choice.  What ever happened to no regrets?  I know that what is done is done but I can't help but wonder if I should have taken a different path.  Maybe I should have listened to my brain instead of my heart.  Maybe I shouldn't want things so bad.  Maybe I should stop being so selfish and spoiled.  I've worked for what I have and I have no intention of losing it but I think I just made a huge mistake.


~Nancy Drew

WORK!

I am trying so hard to find a job!  I don't want to stress about money anymore.  I want a job that I don't dread going to every day.  I want a job that pays actual money instead of peanuts.  It's going to be difficult once I find something because we only have one vehicle right now.  I'm glad I didn't buy a new car in February like I had planned but I wish we had two cars right now.  Job hunting would be so much easier if Brittanney and I each had our own cars.


~Nancy Drew

It's a home, not just a house.

I absolutely love my house.  Brittanney and I are making many changes and I am excited about it.  Since our bedroom was so big, we moved into one of the guest rooms and we've changed our bedroom into our living room.  Our old living room will be our new sitting room.  It's going to make such a huge difference in our lives.  Isn't it amazing how such small decisions can change everything?

~Nancy Drew

Luck

When is my luck going to change?  I love the Missouri Lottery Bingo scratcher tickets.  I want to play all the time but I never win anything.  I want to catch a break and get some extra money just for playing games.  I mean, who wouldn't want that?  I know it's unrealistic, but I can dream, right?  

You just wait.  One day, I'll hit it big.  Just wait.

~Nancy Drew

Did ya miss me?

Holy balls... It's been a long time since I've been able to blog.  I've missed it.  Not that anyone reads this crap.... but I still enjoy it.  I have been without internet for a couple months and just got it back.  (Julia, if you read this, I have a letter in the mail to you!)  It's been a tough few months but things are getting better.  I've probably lost a lot of friends this summer, but what can ya do?


I've been writing a lot more lately.  I'm not happy with the quality of my writing, but it's a good start.  It's a great stress reliever too.  But..it's just more crap that I dish out that nobody wants to taste.  Whatever.  I like it.


My smokin hot wife is sleeping and the sound of her quiet snoring is soothing to me this morning.  I know she isn't feeling well and I wish there was something I could do to comfort her.  Our family keeps growing.  I'm not sure why we feel the need to take in any little homeless animal.  They are smelly and whiney and they are without manners, but we love them.  I'm afraid we will be on Animal Hoarders soon.


More later.


~Nancy Drew

Praying

I wish I was in Idaho right now.  I don't know how I could help while being there other than to lend a shoulder to cry on, a face to punch, or to give a hug.  I wish I knew the right things to say to ease someone's pain.  I wish there was something I could do to alleviate even the smallest amount of grief that someone is feeling.  I'm praying for wisdom.  I'm praying for Greg.  

If anyone is reading this, please pray for Greg too.  Bless him.  He needs it.

~Nancy Drew

Coupons!

My new obsession is coupons.  I know I'll never be as good as those on Extreme Couponing, but I'm trying.  I have been writing letters to companies complimenting their products and most are sending back awesome coupons.  Many of them are sending coupons for free stuff.  Dannon and Coffee-Mate have sent the best coupons so far.  Michelina's sent me coupons for 2 free entrees up to $2.50 value each.  That was awesome.  If I am going to be the housewife of the family, I am going to at least work to save us a few dollars on food.  Especially since we are on starvation right now.  Top Ramen is saving our asses.  But thanks to my letter writing and couponing efforts, now we can live like queens off of coffee creamer and yogurt.

~Nancy Drew

Yay New York!

I am so happy and excited!  New York legalized same-sex marriage.  That's just one step closer and I cannot wait until more states follow suit.  I hate the fact that once Brittanney and I are married, Missouri won't even recognize it.  How can it be illegal to be married to someone you love?!  Who cares if we both have vaginas?!  We make better sexy time than if one of us had a penis.

Congratulations, New York!

Yay for gay!  I love rainbows!

~Nancy Drew

Steve loves Brittanney

Steve missed Brittanney so much that decided to be her lap dog.  I'll have to admit, I got a little jealous.  But it was very sweet watching Steve get up on Brittanney's lap while she was relaxing in the recliner after work.  I know he would miss her if she was gone for more than a day... and so would I.

~Nancy Drew

Yum?

McNugget is growing like a little weed.  This was about a week or so ago and he already looks twice as big.  His feathers are coming in and he's getting a nice little attitude... just like Mommy. :)

~Nancy Drew