Movies, anyone?

Since most everything in my life is uncertain right now, I've decided to blog about something I know.  I know movies.  I love movies and I love going out to see movies.  Anyone know how long it's been since I've been to a movie?  Close to a year.  It sucks.  I used to go with my friends all the time.  But now, I'm stuck with renting movies when they are cheap on Sundays or just watching tv online.  


My movie obsession is horror or suspense films.  My goal for the past couple of years is to find a 'scary' movie that actually scares me.  I used to be so jumpy and I hated watching them but now, I laugh at them.  I like the stories but the fear factor is kinda lame to me now.  I'm looking down at my desk and I see a couple scary movies that I rented this past weekend.  They don't scare me but I love the story.  


So, I need someone to tell me what movie will scare me if I watch it.  Leave me a comment and give it your best shot.  


~Nancy Drew

Just keeps getting better...

I begged for someone to wow me and they certainly did.  I've had a really bad feeling in my gut for weeks and for good reason.  Where do I go from here?  I wish I could disappear.  I've said that before without real meaning.  I've never meant it more than right now.  Never before have I ever felt more unloved, unappreciated, unwanted, and alone.  


We all know that life is unfair....but how long do people feel this way?  When do I get my moment that I've been waiting for?


I think I'm a good person.  I really do.  I will give up what I have to help someone who needs it.  I always try to think ahead to make things easier on the people who are around me.  And yet, I am a bitch.  If I am a bitch for being upset over the things that upset me, then so be it.  Hi, I'm Nancy Drew and I'm a bitch.  Did that wow you?


~Nancy Drew

Incredible Moments

Whatever happened to those incredible moments that just take your breath away?  Those times when everything is going your way and you feel happy and complete?  I've felt that before.  What happened to them?  I used to have joy.  Now, I simply feel content.  And sometimes, not even that.  Lately it has been that the best thing to happen during my day is when I get a hug from one of the ladies at work.  Just a simple hug.  That brightens my day a bit, but even then I am not wowed.  I want that WOW again.  I want excitement instead of anxiety.  I am tired.  I am tired of not sleeping and tired of worrying about whether or not my dogs will have food next week or whether or not my utilities will be shut off again.  I want something big to happen.  Something good.  Somebody, PLEASE.... wow me.


~Nancy Drew

New Job

I started a new job today.  It was a lot of fun and I'm sure I will enjoy it for a while.  I also got a haircut.  I kinda wish I hadn't got it cut but what can I do now?  It won't take long for it to grow out again.  


I'm on the verge of losing everything I have.  I'm behind on every bill.  I'll be out of power in a few days and I'm probably going to lose my house.  I'm busting my ass to save what I have but I feel like I'm digging the hole a little bit deeper every day.


I've fought depression for months.  I'm losing the battle.  I've tried to stay positive and not let anyone know how sad and afraid I have been.  I guess I should try harder.  I can't keep lying to everyone about how I'm doing.  


When does this all get better?  Someone please tell me.


~Nancy Drew

Lonely

I miss this beautiful woman.

~Nancy Drew