This is how I feel today. I don't have the guts to do it, but today sucks. This entire week sucked. Today, I googled "how to run away." I didn't learn anything because the truth is that I can't leave. I can't leave my dogs or my birds. So I'll stay here and dig myself out of this hole. Without anyone's help. I will do this alone. If these posts are too depressing to read, then I advise that you don't read them. If I had something better to blog about, I would write about it. But I don't. This is my life right now. Sadness.