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Thursday, March 10, 2011

Yay for gay, I love rainbows!

Why are people so close-minded?  I would give anything to live in a world where people are not judged by who they love.  Growing up in a small town where people just don't accept being gay or lesbian, I never talked about my attraction to women.  I felt ashamed because everyone said it's a sin.  Well, fine.  I know I'm a sinner and if you are reading this, you are a sinner too.  But that's ok.  We all make mistakes.  Sin or no sin, I am who I am.  I think lying is a sin too and that's what I did most of my life.  I spent most of my life dating men and pretending to be happy.  I never was strong enough to come out to my family that I was really attracted to women.  I know my mom would've been upset to know, but I really wish I had told her that I like girls.  Now that Mom is gone, I feel like I lied to her my entire life.  That's something I have to live with.  Coming out would've been a better option.

LGBT kids are losing their lives because of the world's ignorance and that needs to stop!  Gay kids are so afraid to tell their parents they are gay that they are suicidal.  I wish I had the courage but I waited too late.  It's so difficult to be honest with ourselves, not to mention being honest with our friends and family.  People are afraid to come out because of being bullied and harrassed.  It's nobody else's business who someone else loves.  Just be happy that they can find love!  I hope to find it someday.  When I was younger, I wasn't afraid of being bullied.  To be honest, I'm not sure exactly why I was afraid.  I just know that I had to keep my sexuality a secret and that's not right. 

Once again, I ask why are people so close-minded?  I wish I knew the answer and how to remedy the issue... but, I'm just as guilty.  I was close-minded for most of my life.  I refused to entertain the idea of coming out and dating a girl in the open.  I may still date a man in the future, but I'm more attracted to women and I am doing my best to be more open about it.  I might just shout it from the rooftops.  I'm no longer ashamed nor afraid.  And if you don't like me because of who I love, then eat shit and skedaddle. :)

We should all treat people with respect and dignity.  Being gay or transgender shouldn't be an issue.  It's should be normalcy.
I say that if you are a woman who loves women or you are a man who loves men, you should be proud to have pride!


~Nancy Drew

7 comments:

  1. Sweet heart Im so very proud of you I know this was not an easy thing for you to write but you again have come through with flying colors! I believe everyone has the right to be loved. you have fiven me more love than most people and have accepted me for all my many faults. Again I want you to know how so very proud I am of you.....you Rock!!!

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  2. i love you. i wish you were awake right now. damn the time difference. as i read your post, less comes to mind about being gay, and more comes to mind about being different. you know my yupik crush? i haven't told him yet about my mental illness. es. i'm so afraid of being judged in this small town, i haven't told anyone about my past, or my present. i'm afraid to tell people i'm a cutter. i've never been afraid to tell people that. ashamed of it, yes, but afraid? me? never. i'm all about awareness. but this guy, i'm getting too close to close and NOT telling him. or telling him about being raped. i haven't even told my mom yet that i missed the grand jury hearing. he'll never be indicted without a complaining witness. victim. i'm afraid to tell people i was victimized. and that's definitely a conversation i should have with my yupik crush. b/c i'm coming TOO close.
    ok. fresh. you gave me the strength. i called him. i'm gonna talk to him tonight. tell him about the rape. that much you gave me strength for. and for tonight, that's just as much as i need. i love you and we'll talk soon, and you can help me straighten the rest out. i've never been afraid. and i'm ashamed of being afraid.

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  3. love this entry! thank you for posting it!

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  4. hey sweetie
    ok ya got me started i have a blog now. think its lonewof1958 or my crazy adventures. I love you so much and I am so proud to have you as my friend

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  5. hugs. You're cute! miss ya.
    Taryn

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  6. hugs. You're cute! miss ya.
    Taryn

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  7. hey sweetie
    ok ya got me started i have a blog now. think its lonewof1958 or my crazy adventures. I love you so much and I am so proud to have you as my friend

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